Yesterday on my day off I went to visit my meme. She is literally 2 minutes from our house but I haven't seen her in a few months. It's very very hard for me to go up there & I am not just saying that to make an excuse. Everytime I go up there I start crying because I can't believe that is her staring blankly back at me. I know it's okay to cry but sometimes it's just too much. I know I need to go see her more often & I should have never gone this long without visiting. I know one day i will wish she was right down the street again. I pray every night for her not to be in pain because I don't really know what else to pray for. I know she won't ever know who I am again and I think I have made my peace with that. I know sometimes she knows I'm someone familiar because she will cry when she sees me or her eyes will get really big. Not yesterday though... :( she stared at me like I was just another nurse caring for her. I think she forgot I was even sitting with her several times. She fell asleep multiple times while I was sitting there & when she'd wake up, I'd squeeze her hand to let her know I was there.
Please pray for our family. Pray that meme isn't in pain. Pray that my granddaddy isn't lonely. It breaks my heart when he talks about her. She'll often cry when he leaves for the night & it makes him want to stay. I know he can't stand it. Can you imagine knowing that your wife will never come back home again? Never step foot in yalls house again? Hard to swallow.
Here's a picture I snapped while she was snoozing away yesterday....
Your post brought tears to my eyes, that has to be such a hard thing to go through! So sweet that you went to visit her even though it is so hard. Praying for her, you, and your family!
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